Home Alone... with Isaac

Finally... an opportunity for me to experience what it is like to be a full-time mother/housewife. Mum went to KL for a 3-day getaway this week and i was left pretty much alone with Isaac, except for the occasional help from Chee Meng and my dad in the evenings so that i can shower, have my meals etc. The experience is quite alright, except that it was quite a boring routine which revolved around putting him to sleep, bathing him, cleaning him, feeding him, washing his clothes, putting him to sleep, cleaning him, feeding him...the cycle repeats itself everyday. Boring but fulfilling and at the same time, made me feel more confident of taking care of Isaac alone. And i think i can. I even wanted to bring Isaac out shopping but the weather (it was raining every afternoon) stopped me from doing so. So i only managed to bring Isaac downstairs to get some sunlight this morning coz it was bright and sunny!

Siok, Michelle and Lynette had dinner last night and Siok called me while they were having cocktails. She asked how i was coping and if i missed working. I told her quite honestly that i missed working and i could hear the rest going "oh man, this is bad...". And Siok went on and on about how motherhood is fulfilling etc. I bet they thought i am totally stressed out and on the verge of depression or something. But I'm ok, just that i missed having my 'alone time' since Isaac is born. Everything revolves around Isaac now and i guess it's also my own doing (maternal instinct) - i made everything revolve around Isaac and i must admit it that i sometimes just can't let go especially when i am still breastfeeding him. When I went for a medical appointment with Dr Chew, Dr Chew asked us if we found time to 'pak tor'. Both of us shook our head in unison. Dr Chew said that it is important for us to have some couple time together, and advised us to take 2-3 hours off once a week just to spend some time alone. Dr Chew also asked if everything was going on fine. I told him that we had a couple of tiffs since Isaac joined us (we hardly have tiffs) and he said that it was normal, coz the mommy assumes the daddy knows what mommy wants daddy to do. He hit the nail on the head. I had assumed that Chee Meng will know what i want done, how i want it to be done etc. I felt guilty that i have not been communicating with him since i had to take care of Isaac myself, which made me petty, hot-tempered and basically angry at Chee Meng. Luckily we trashed everything out and made it a point to communicate better now. Now, i am more appreciative of Chee Meng and also make it a point to tell him what i need him to do. And he does help out.

Well, mum is coming back tomorrow and i will have someone to help me look after Isaac while i steal some naptime and have some alone time! I'm glad i passed the 3-day test.