Chee Meng and i sneaked out for a 'date' tonight - to catch the latest James Bond movie. Isaac was at home with Auntie... the 2nd last night before she goes back. Chee Meng took leave today to accompany us around and also to take a break from work. Well, both of us think that the latest Bond movie is just so-so... nothing to shout about...I think i still prefer the series of Bond movies by Peirce Brosnan coz he's just so suave...
I went on our date with mixed feelings - on the one hand, i felt good doing the usual couple things again just as we did before Isaac came into our lives. But on the other hand, i kept thinking what was Isaac doing (is he sleeping, has he drank his milk, has he this, has he that...) and if he's 'bullying' Auntie. We contemplated taking a short break to either Thailand or Hong Kong in Dec 08, but i'm not sure if i can go on our holiday (leaving him in the care of my mum) without thinking about him. From a very firm ' yes, i can leave him with mum' initially, my inner voice is telling me 'can i leave him with mum?' now. My main concern is whether he will get his daily requirements of breastmilk and if that few days being away from him will affect my milk supply especially when i'm not really overflowing. Mornings can yield about 6-7 ounces of breastmilk (coz i'm too tired to wake up to pump/feed Isaac at night as he's being cared for by Auntie) and every 3 hourly interval gets me about 3 ounces combined at most. Hmmm.. don't think the quantity is sufficient to meet Isaac's needs. After suckling on both breasts, he's still restless at times and we have to supplement it with formula. Sometimes my inadequate supply makes me a bit sad and demoralised, but i'm determined to keep breastfeeding him as long as i can but at least for 6 months. Let's hope my breastmilk will fill up buckets!!
Since i've been lazy at night, i shall try 'relactation' after i take care of Isaac full-time. It may not be easy and may even be tough, but let's try it. At least my body is well-nourished to withstand inadequate sleep due to night feeds and i think my determination will see me through. Of course, let's hope little Isaac will cooperate with me and not 'bully' me.
Though i'm a bit worried if i can cope with taking care of Isaac on my own, I'm at the same time quite looking forward to it. Coz it's something i have to go through eventually. And i think i should be able to manage.
Wish me luck! Or else, buy me lots of eye cream to cover up my panda eyes (let's hope you don't have to!!!!)
The challenge begins on Sun night:)
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How's everything? Can manage?
Actually, you will have greater satisfaction if you take care of Issac yourself, rather than depending on nanny or parents. To see them grow is the happiest thing in life. Dont ever think about whether you can cope or not, all mothers can do it, even if you have no experience, you utimately can still manage. Most importantly, ask if you are not sure.
Like me, it has been a month since I looked after Jingkai all by myself. Furthermore, I still have to cook dinner for hubby and daughter, and also to do housework, pump milk. Initially, I didnt even think whether I can manage or not, but a month has gone, I have proven that I can do it.
So, you also can do it, ya!
My advise is: spend as much time as you can with Issac especially when he is an infant, you dont want to miss seeing him looks different everyday right? My hubby and I had our holiday only after our daughter was 1 year old, and that was only a short trip to HK, and let me tell you, I missed her everyday though I knew she was in good hands. Mothers are mothers, thats why there's a saying " 世上只有妈妈好".:) All the best to you!
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